This week a few more lights have been turned on in the stadium and I can start seeing shapes, the main flood lights are still off. There has been a number of little “ahha” / illuminating moments.
The one was when reading Og Mandino “As I repeat the words daily they seep into my other mind, the mysterious source that never sleeps . . Thus a new habit is born . . it becomes a pleasure to perform . . I perform it often . . I become its slave . . . and since it is a good habit this is my will.” Suddenly I realise how new habits start taking shape by the continual, regular, emotional, exposure to a new thought / act / action. Just like driving a car especially when revering out of a parking space into moving traffic – looking backwards, rear-view mirror, clutch, hand brake, petrol, changing gears with a stick shift, steering wheel, oh and the speed of releasing the clutch and amount of fuel. How did this all get into my subconscious? I answered yes to each of these questions; Is it a good habit? Is it my will? Am I a slave to it? The watchman at the gate is staring to play a more significant role, but the old blueprint wants the old way.
The second was from Master Keys. This answered how I learned to drive a car / bicycle. “The new actions will, however, in their turn, become habitual, then automatic, then subconscious in order that the mind again may be freed from this detail and advance to still other activities.” Now that I can drive a car my conscious mind can move on to the next habit.
The third light that went on was from Think and Grow Rich – Napoleon Hill “I will never stop trying until I shall have developed sufficient self-confidence.” This links directly to the Index cards [blue rectangle] – habits = confidence builders – my changing blue print.
Just in case you are thinking that I only notice the lights going on, not so. I am continually fighting the old blue print that tells me I am not worthy of the new me I see – self-doubt. And so another challenging and exciting week draws to a close and the butterfly is still in the cocoon getting bigger and stronger.